you said blocking/deleting someone on facebook was lame but hey, you did the same.
i call that childish & lame.
over a small argument result to this, is so not worth it.
you always ask & wish want people would grow up but i think you are the one who really need to grow up first before saying all the above.
i thought you were mature mentally but i was wrong & today make it damn right.
since you want to end everything somehow, i will do as you wish cause one lesser friend is fine for me.
i grew smarter (you taught me how), so i know truly know who are the people who really cares & love me not for a particular reason but for who i really am inside out.
honestly, i was seldom my true self when i am with you.
why? cause i just didnt think you were worth seeing the real me.
if you think you know me well, i am sorry but i have to tell you no.
i know you dont deserve to see the real then why still be your friend right? i was your friend cause you had strong points i needed to learn/have & make myself stronger mentally.
if you couldnt tell i wasnt my true self, my oh my you aint that observe.
i am human after all so being selfish is nothing wrong.
if you dont be selfish at times, how are you going to gain?
if you think i am wrong, go think about it. go reflect back if you never been selfish before. i am pretty sure your answer is no cause everyone is selfish to an extend to gain something for them myself.
if people can make friends with me for reasons then why cant i?
i am now cautious with who i mix with.
i am glad my friends now are people who are less like those who turn away.
obviously they are better, way much.
lesser close friends are better than having sooo many who you dont know who to trust.
my family, bby, nelson, celeste are people i trust most till today.
life is just life, gonna fight through it(:
visitor since 29 August 2009.
3 comments:
Yes, deleting and blocking people on facebook is fucking lame. Did i block/delete you initially? No, i didn't even think of doing so. Then why did i suddenly do so? BECAUSE I HATE SEEING YOU PUT UP INDIRECT STATUSES, BLOGGING INDIRECTLY INSTEAD OF TELLING ME STRAIGHT.
It was an eyesore for me. So i deleted you.
You knew exactly what i was going through during the period of time we fell out. If you truly cared about what i've been telling you about amanda, why did you do the same? How did you think i had to accept you and Amanda being like that at the same time? That led to my reaction..
I loved you for who you were. I know you, and i know i do. It's okay if you claim you were not yourself, etc etc and that i don't know you etc, making use of my strong points all along etccccc.It doesn't even sound like smthg you'd say, smthg you would intend to do! Esp towards me. Cos i know you truly loved me once. You, Dion Lin, know what kind of friends we really were, without the influence of anyone beside you. Our similarities.. our thinking.. everything. The times we just stood by each other until we got through it. I helped you wholeheartedly with my strong points, and i wanted you to gain from it so badly AND YOU KNOW IT. Cos you were aware of how much i do not want you to face the same bad things guys do to you over and over again.
I don't bother about the times i managed to see through you.. and you least expected it. I didn't even bother about your bad points dion. Throughout our friendship, all i can remember is me nagging and scolding you, not bothering if you would be angry if i were too honest with you about the things you had to be careful about and so on. You admitted it yourself
i'm glad your life is wonderful now. I just wanted to make myself clear. I am wondering when i ever turned away from you though..
I'm disappointed you lied to me about your blog post. About the day ben passed you the phone and you claimed i hung up on you.. etc
1) this shows you do not dare own up on what you have to say about people especially after i explained myself to you.
2) this shows you ASSUME. You've been assuming so much about me now.. you never really did think about why i am reacting like this to you now right?
Whatever it is girl, before you have any conclusions, think back first.. Don't keep assuming.. Mama always posts good stuff on her facebook. If she was good enough to observe that accurate stuff about me right from the beginning... then i hope she will wake up and make you learn the things she preaches about all the time. and also... see through you and perhaps, know me thoroughly first.
My conscience is clear, i was never fake towards you, i was honest and i spoke whatever i really meant.
Everything came from the bottom of my heart. The day i found myself crying becos i was so worried about you was the day i knew, something like this was going to happen. Cos i know i wouldnt be able to accept it when anything like what happened, happen.
Just for you to note.. I'm back with amanda becos i learnt. I learnt that loving even more than i already did, could solve everything.
If this didn't happen between us, i wouldn;t have learnt that. And wouldn't have realised.. the people you were once close with (excluding L and R) feels the exact same way i do/have the same opinion towards you.. And it was all derived from the fact they once knew you.
Glad that you trust those people you met not long ago. And before you misunderstand, i am being my true straightforward self, not hostility.
I'm here to make myself clear, and also.. wish you the best for your endeavor. I won't forget the times we had together. It was probably a phase.. you learnt, i did as well. And i won't regret doing anything/saying when we were inseparable cos during those days, you and i did what we really want, what we truly felt towards each other. Pity the picture of the old ladies won't be something we'd be in the future. But thinking back on the fuzzy warmth feeling we had when we were so so sure we would be like those bling ladies in town.. i can feel the love!
It doesn't mean the memory of happiness cannot stay true because it ended unhappily. Cos happiness is not only real if it lasted forever.
I know i am better off without you. We're just moving on.. far more deeper into this world yeah?
Dion, always dance like no one is watching. Never give up.
I guess that's it.
sorry but who are you? okok... i think i know who you are already.
was this post if even directing to you? you dont even know whats happening in my this part of life now..if you did the same thing doesnt mean is you, cause others can do that too. dont be too sensitive cause somethings are not even referring about you.
why am i even explaining myself? dont know... anyway, if the rest have the same opinion as you do towards me, what can i do? i know who i have grown up to be so is fine. i dont need certain people's judgments to tell me to change or what so ever.
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